Time to ADjust

When I encounter a period of many changes, I often need time to adjust. During those times I do as little as possible. This can be minutes, hours, days, months and even years depending on the amount of adjustment that is needed. Although it looks like I am doing nothing much, this is actually the real period of inner change & growth. Not much energy left for outer business, so by shutting off unnecessary activities, I create room for my inner growth. This created a lot of stress and anger towards myself and others. It felt like wasting time. But in a way it is balance that I seek to find room for on going changes and growth (evolution). When getting older this process can become more difficult. That is my experience. So by becoming more conscious about this adjusting I can understand better why I do what I do. For me periods to adapt are best dealt with by letting go, accepting it takes time to change and grow. I have been working very hard in my life on an inner and outer level. I need both levels; to make progress. 

I take the time I need to create inner transitions by changing and growth. If I am constantly active in the outer world doing all kinds of things, being busy all the time, there wouldn't be any energy and room left for change and growth.....


Leendert van Velsen