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October 2009 
Let me tell you about my fear
Posted on Mar 11th, 2006
by 
Leendert
Leendert
But I am
But I am
Blue is the colour of my tear
Black is the colour of my fear
Why should I let you go, I don't know
I don't know
Brown is the colour of my earth
Bright was the light around my birth
How can I let you go, I don't know
I don't know
Green is the colour of my hate
White is the light towards my faith
Why must I let you go, I don't know
I don't know
I don't know who I am
I don't know what I am
I don't know why I am
But I am
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I shouldn’t comment on this but; I am; I want to clarify that letting people go on a certain level has been my Greatest Fear and difficulty until now, after letting someone special go who has been with me for 12 years. Now that fear has become reality, I have learned that I am suppose to deal with fear in a different way, because else your greatest fear can become your reality.
It is so true that that which we fear becomes our reality. It is also true that anything that we vision becomes our reality. We are creatures of free will but we have to know ourselves well enough to have free will. In not knowing ourselves we create not from our spiritual will but from fear and unconscious manifestation.
I like the new blue/purple photo.
Best,
Hannah
Yeah, photo-shop is such a thrill! I am learning and learning over here incredible! Sometimes we fall back a little, that is tough. But tomorrow I will be renewed again.
I wrote this poem in December 2004. Two years before it became reality. I can see that now, didn’t saw it then.
I love your colors and words. A very “feeling” and visual piece of poetry. Much appreciation for it!
A poem for a poem:
Letting Go
If you hold on to your past,
How will you know today?
If you hold on to today,
How will you know tomorrow?
If you hold on to tomorrow,
How will you know now?
If you hold on to now,
You will know
All there is to know.
Dear Leendert, the Illuminator, enlighten the Light within, and all your sorrows and sadness and fears wii pass away like Darkness. Rise above the plane of existence, practically, where you are brooding someone who does not understand you or realise your Love for her. It is Truth that “I am,” but am I? I am a part, a part out of countless parts of Brahman, of Existence-Consciousness-Bliss [Sat-chit-ananda], of the Supreme Divine Consciounsness. May be I am small, I am also Infinite. Rise to your true relationship with The Supreme Consciouness, as your consciousness comes from Him only. All darkness, all sorrows, all pangs of separation, all will evaporate. You will be in Peace, in Bliss, in Freedom, in Strength. You will be rejuvenated.
It is now midnight here, Good night.
Barin
13/14-03-2006
Thank you Henrietta, for your beautiful poem, I like the idea of a poem for a poem. I am going through a process of letting go so It is sure comforting.
Barin, I already see you as a special friend! Your comments are Illuminating!
It comforts, brings wisdom, love, and it mirrors my Ego to the Truth!
Thank all of you for these beautiful honest comments.
Leendert
namaste Leendert;
Beautiful poem!…much appreciated!
I think once one undersands, or rather recognises that we are all connected, that there is no separation really the fear subsides. I think that fear arises because of the feeling of loss, separation…but anyone that we love, has been found and thus can never be lost, or separated.
Fear is the manifestation of the ego, once one trancends that, no more fear. That has been man`s downfall even in the Garden of Eden…sin was the separation from God, away from the light, a `mistake`. Once there is awareness, there is awakening from the unconscious and the egos want…which in reality is not real love.
-love does not want
-love does not need
-love does not fear
-love does not cling
-love lets go
-love is not dependent on anything or anyone,
-it is within not without….it does not vary, our awareness may vary
I think that relationships have a certain agenda, once played out , ….sometimes we move on , though having become part forever of the other person.
I always think that Shakespeare said it beautifully when he said…we all have our parts to play, and then exit the stage.
We use our minds, our minds should not use us! If we are used by the mind we have a limited perspective, and its motivator the ego, which is based on fear. Love arises causlessly as nature itself.
love & light,
Zsu