For My Mother

Maria~Antonia
1937
2000

To my Mother Maria

Today is your birthday Mama, I didn't know what to buy you so I send you this rose, because I know these are your favorites. It is now 4 days, 5 months, 6 years ago you left us remember? Sometimes it seems 4 seconds, 5 minutes, 6 hours ago. Cannot even type this without  a tear~ and a cry~ and a smile~

Actually I am writing this blog NOT for myself but for the people who come here and read my blog. I do not need to write a blog about you Mother. We are more close then ever today, in my heart, my soul, my actions. Usually I just write to amuse myself, as a true narcissus I love to read my own writings (LOL). This time I write to tell others about you mama. You never like that very much, you wanted to keep EVERYTHING inside of the family to protect us. But now I think I understand why you needed to protect us and I am sure you do not mind anymore~  

Maria Antonia was a very powerful woman, the strongest woman I have ever seen in my life. She loved me & my Brother to Death! She was a Queen Lioness I can tell you! She could be very difficult to others, because she believed people should be tough! No crying when there is all together nothing to cry about! She was quite aware of the fact, we as a family were very lucky in a material way, but also in a spiritual way. My Mother was very upset with Christianity and what so called Christians believe today. She taught me your church is inside of you, you do not need earthly religion to believe in hope, love, compassion,  justness, truth, honesty, the relativity of it all. Out of all this My brother and me developed high standards, very useful if you want to accomplish anything in life. 

She also hated Nazis, very much, we could not persuade her to forgive, I tried, but no way.

She had lost her father (on his birthday) two days after I was born on the 3th day on the 5th of the 4th month in 1969, 5 minutes past 4 in the afternoon. 
She was not amused by this. I think she was angry for a long time....I think she and God and her Father had some talks about this when they got together in 2000.

Anyway,  I love my Mother with all of my cells & atoms & soul, it would have been her 69th birthday today, but she always hated getting old anyway, so that's OK. She taught me everything until I was 17and 3 months and left home to join the Army :-) 
I did not new the concept of the Peaceful Warrior then mam, sorry :-)
My Brother understood better, He became a UN MFO Peacekeeping Officer in the Sinai Dessert, between Israel and Egypt, for quite some time~ :-) Trying to do my Peacekeeping obligations right now....:-)))
I really miss your Human Being Mama.

~ To the best Mother, any Universal Child could want to havE ~