I have a gamut of energies

I used to think I was a personality an ego, then I found out that the circumstances influences the way this personality is acting. Slowly I became aware of the Many Me's in me as different types of energy. Then I started to recognise this in others. I learned that the people I like or admire, seem to represent qualities I like in myself or want to develop. The other way around I used to dislike people for having energies not at all developed in my system. Crazy! I know now there is no like or dislike in the outer universe. It is all inside of me! So instead of liking or disliking I developed curiosity towards all energies, so that I can get to know them and integrate them in my system. Life is showing me continuously where I need to look and for how long. That way I started to make contact with areas in my soul of which I didn't even know they were there! Then the Big exploring began. Looking in every corner, behind every brick, every shadow, to find the origin of the Light (the energy). That is how I started to polish the rock, into sand, heat it up, to create a reflecting mirror. In this mirror I can see you and me as One. Now I am talking about a process that took me many years (I am a slow student :-)

Now I enter the phase where I need to create a transparent mirror, by blogging about all the lessons I received. I reflect them to you and to myself. That way this blog was started. It starts on the 31/12/2005 with a poem and from then on I travel towards today. Where I am now, in the here & now. (as you read this you will understand that  "now" is already history for me.....)

I have learned to observe everything very, very closely and now I am learning to do that all the time, as a traditional student, I sometimes forget about my study and I start to dream about the future.....only to wake up again and realise, I am only Human. :-)


Leendert van Velsen