My Inner Child was engulfed!

Engulfed by every defence method I used when I was a harmless defenceless little child. My mother (Maria) brought me into this world and after 2 days (Today almost 37 years ago) her father Leendert died from a Lung decease. My Mother was filled with grieve at the time I first entered Earth. She had named me Leendert, but called me Leo until I was 21 when I wanted to be called Leon. (All those Me's?!) This is a sad story and it has influenced my whole being. These defence measurements become eventually sub personalities (The Many Me's) They became so obsessed with the protection of the fragile eggshell mind of my just born soul, I got engulfed by them, so the primary mission of these sub personalities failed. I have learned how to restore them and by doing that I have recognised the Child deep inside of me, hiding behind a wall of bricks. That is all in the past. I have found my way back by crisis. And it brought me this nice thesis.

Leendert van Velsen