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An Animal can be my Teacher

Posted on May 11th, 2007 by Leendert : Illuminator ES Leendert
Lucky
I see all animals (like all humans) as my Brothers and Sisters and they can and have learned me many things about ME. By having close contact with animals and observing them I have learned many thing I though I had lost. My best friend in life (RIP) a Scottish Collie, Lucky Guy, was with me for 14 years. And during a difficult time my only soul-mate  Now I know Lucky was sort of a divine teacher in my life and I honor Him for that and His Love was pure and unconditioned.

Animals are very close to their true essence. Not like most Humans, animals express themselves freely and are not obstructed by their conditioning, not like we are, I am trying to break free from the conditioning and the animals are helping me to accomplish that! The animals are so in touch with their instincts and adapt naturally to the Universal rhythms, by watching them closely I can obtain this talent again and value it the way it should be valued.


Leendert van Velsen
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In some way I AM an Animal too!

Posted on May 10th, 2007 by Leendert : Illuminator ES Leendert
One year ago I wrote:

And this is not a Joke :-|

Although I am sure there is a good joke in here......(we will see).


I used to have hours of discussion with one of my best friends N. from the Netherlands. He is Thailand now, so if you are reading this: "HELLOW" My Friend!!!!!!!!
We discussed many things but I remember we were arguing one nigh on a holiday near the island of MALTA, actually GOZO is the name of the Island, known for its Birds, Crystal clear Sea water and a integration history of many cultures, interesting place you should visit if you have the chance. :-) Anyway I felt always opposite to his opinion that we are animals, and animals of the worst sort. He was right, by looking at the Big Mess we made of our planet and our behaviour in General. He was wrong (in my humble opinion) because I still believe we are so much more then animals. Then again we perhaps grew to each other, I accepting more that we have an animal body nature and bio-suit,, He because I think he is discovering right now we are so much more then animals....This in terms of consciousness, divinity, thoughts, ideas, goals, creativity etc.

So much less in terms of useless violence, misuse of power, money, industry, the list is to long......

I am now learning to respect the animal side in me, so I will find a better balance between the universal spirit in me and the bio body I need to be here on Earth in this presence. The level of my consciousness raised enormously by accepting this and to cherish this.

Leendert van Velsen
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My Breath

Posted on May 16th, 2007 by Leendert : Illuminator ES Leendert
My biggest achievement until today is my breath and controlling it. Before my thoughts were running around in my head like a mad wild horse. Uncontrollable.
When I started meditation seriously I soon discovered that breathing techniques used in martial arts are based on the same principles. Controlling Chi makes a martial arts warrior 4 times as powerful. In meditation I learned thoughts can become 4 times as powerful when controlled and mastered. 7 Years ago, during my the honeymoon of my first and only marriage until now, I took meditation lessons with a very nice lady. She lives in Sri Lanka and teaches local children in kindergarten how and why meditation. She told me many things but it still took 7 years to master all this. (I guess I am a slow student :-) One lesson I will never forget was her way of the walking meditations. This was particularly hard because it was the first step in breathing deep constantly conscious ALL the time, during walking, eating, reading,  working, playing.......that way the mind can enter a constant state of peace, a continues meditation, all the time!

This was key in my initiation process. Otherwise said that made it possible to "download" my future as I was planning to study for the works of Illuminator! :-) It's (in my humble opinion) a matter of certain frequencies, that creates my future. 

Today I basically use two breathing techniques all the time. Breathing for my self and Breathing for the other and beyond. Breathing for myself (or else I die of lack of oxygen, :-) is deep lower belly breathing slow, but surely, breathing in positive, and letting go breathing out the negative. When I am breathing for some one else, it is exactly the other way around. I breath in negative and return positive breath into the world or person or anything.....One of my Hero's here at Zaadz is Desmond22, he is truly a breathing expert, If you do not know him I advice  you to visit his page!

I wrote a poem about breathing a while ago.

Breathe wisely!


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Listening to my body

Posted on May 21st, 2007 by Leendert : Illuminator ES Leendert

Being in touch with my bio suit has always luckily been a fact for me, but I know now that this is not always the case for others as I learn more from them. When I was 7 I remember having physical visions, on a different level then thoughts or even images in the mind. It was more that I felt things flowing through my body, a sort of contraction of energy in my entire body but coming from out of me entering the above chackra or something (?)  ;-). Out of that contraction a burst of emotion followed by rapid pictures, and if I say rapid, I mean very quick, a concatenation of pictures shot trough my body sort of like a machine-gun rate. I am Leo, I am here. This one sentence I remember reciting to myself.....I have learned when I grew up this was kind of strange....OK maybe not to you, but, in Holland, in 1976 I wouldn't dream of telling someone, today...well according to my shrink, it is still pretty strange, I can tell you that!

I am telling you all this because I want to explain why I "listen" to my body. It is not a joke, I can hear what it says. If I feel anything in my body, I go there by attention of thought, and with the speed of neurons I check it out. If it does not feel good, I bombard it with bright light and healthy energy, breathing in healthy air and out giving back other useful stuff for enriching the air around me, a bio suit, has not only a personal function as vehicle for my soul, but it also interacts on many levels (for example chemical) with the rest of the outer universe, so it is literally TRUE when it was said we do have an inner and outer universe, communicating, interacting. Problems in our universes are always related lo lack of love, attention, compassion, taking care.......Think about that. One We Are. I listen carefully when my body speaks!  I can hear it hum, resonating.


Leendert van Velsen

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Touch is a Profound & Important Instrument

Posted on May 23rd, 2007 by Leendert : Illuminator ES Leendert
I do not like to touch everybody! But within the inner circle of people that are close, my child, my (ex)- wife, my family, my friends, my co-workers, good clients, people I trust, spiritual friends, you know that kind of people! One of my good friends and partners Frank S. and I treat each other as if we are brothers in the truest form, the creativity and energy bursts out of the room when we are working together. So my point is Touch in the literal form and metaphorically are profound tools and I try to use them well. Touch in a physical form has healing qualities still unknown to many. When you look at animals and youngsters for example young lions, have you ever seen......? Touch, play, fight a little, grow....~

Knowledge of how and when to touch, is very, very important because a Lioness or Lion can scratch or bite if done wrong or inappropriate. People in western cultures are not used to touch anymore, they are afraid of touch. I see loneliness, people locking themselves up, shutting them down from the other instead of gathering around the fire. 

Almost everyday I meet someone significant. Anywhere. We talk, we recognise, we laugh, we touch...it is a form of philos love creating an enormous amount of energy for me. By doing this I know (from 1/2 conversations) a lot of people in my town. It's nice, I always meet them again somewhere......


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I Sleep Excellent!

Posted on May 20th, 2007 by Leendert : Illuminator ES Leendert
Around me I hear people saying they have troubles sleeping. How could that be possible? I think this could be well related to Breathing. I have found that my thinking and my breathing are connected. If disconnected, the mind starts to control everything, my thinking, emotions, moods, communications with others, everything! I do not let my mind control all. I have learned my mind it is working for my soul and not the other way around. I have disciplined my mind. (Now I only have to discipline my Actions hehehe)

Anyway, one of the results of the above for me is excellent sleep~ and a build in alarm clock. I program my mind before I go to sleep. Agree on the time I want to wake up. Sometimes I read a little, but only for a few minutes because I cannot stop the sleep! :-) I breath a few times very deep and slow, slowing down the system, I empty the trash can (oh sorry I mean the mind) and bye bye I am off to Summer-land where all my dreams come from and unconsciously register every event on the other side. The process of getting to my sleep takes 5 minutes.  

When I wake up I almost never remember dream. Lucky me. I just know that on a subconscious level all the important data from dreaming are in my system somewhere.....It is enough for me to deal on a daily bases with all events happening in my day to day existence, so I am happy I do not often have to think about what I dream.

Thus I know that if I DO remember a dream it is usually a sacred one (at least for me it is :-) I call it DEO DATA! That way I have created 2 levels of dreaming, subconscious dreaming and conscious dreaming. In both forms it is possible to stay Lucid, but I kind of did all the fun things already and I need my rest when I sleep. I do not want a sleeping disorder! :-)
Flying around can be kind of tiring mentally! (LOL)

So I would say, how much sleep do I get actually. I need 8 hours maximum and I never, ever sleep more, accept when I drink to much :-) I can deal with 6 hours, for a few days when I am very busy, but I need to balance after a few days. During the day I do not need any stuff (coffee or stimulates) to stay sharp, actually often I need to relax a little bit because I have too much energy and I start to drive co-workers around crazy! (LOL) My favorite hobby is monologues, about Changing the World!

I claim I do all this because of good, excellent sleep. People who suffer from too little sleep will recognise all of the problems resulting from this. My advice, meditate, learn to breath proper and the FUN starts SOON!

I GIVE myself the sleep I need Every Night, All Night.



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Experiencing Chi!

Posted on May 26th, 2007 by Leendert : Illuminator ES Leendert
TAI CHI




I can feel my life-force behind every movement if I focus it will get more intense. The stronger it gets the more I feel one with my surroundings and nature. It is as if I know how to move and when. Chi is a concept used in martial arts to empower your training as a martial art student. Understanding Chi is as understanding life in some way, at least that is what it is for me.....:-o I think understanding chi is more difficult when civilized and conditioned by our western oriented mind. This can be used as a Grand advantage if I open myself up for the Eastern way of thinking. That way I can get the benefit of both ways of thinking. The funny thing is this old western way of thinking is changing slowly but surely, I can see it everywhere.....We Western (cowboys?) start to recognise there is more to it then good food in Asia. (lol) Anyway This life force (Chi) is actually the force behind everything, so it could be useful to practice this. That is why I practice a form of Tai Chi. To keep my mind and body in balance.

Chi connects me to all and everyone.


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Community

Posted on May 24th, 2007 by Leendert : Illuminator ES Leendert

As some of you already realize, my blog writings, the 4blogseasons, are born because of Zaadz, Me and Shakti Gawain ,  @ the end of 2005 I got  her little book, from 1992, with the title Awakening, A Daily Guide to Conscious living, published by New World Library, San Rafael. This way she brings me every day a subject that I Read and Contemplate in my mind and blog. (Inner and outer mind!) :-) I asked official written clearance from the publisher and Gawain's management to use her book for this project and I was very happy to receive her blessings through her management. SHAKTI THANK YOU! (~deep bow~)

So all 4blogseasons you read come out of my mind but/and  IS inspired by subject and order according to this little "bible", to which I add my thoughts and ideas.

Everywhere I go I take this little book and every day it is a surprise to see what  I have to think about and then blog about it. That is all. 

Today the subject is COMMUNITY. Remember in 1992 when the little book was published,  there was no virtual community on the internet and it took almost 14 years before this community zaadz.com started.

My sense of community was underdeveloped. It was the internet that brought me back to this sense. The word social community gave me the shivers when I was Young. This is because in the Calvinistic Netherlands in the 1950's and 60's social control was scary. In the '70's when I grew up, the community was changing into a more individual society and social control started to decay. I loved it because I felt alone my entire life, I hated community thinking, I wanted to be an strong individual. Unfortunately being a strong individual in the same society I just described is dangerous. Here in the Netherlands we like to chop any head off that comes above the grass. (Dutch expression?) Another fine Dutch credo: "You better do normal that is crazy enough......" All rubbish! Nevertheless there is a reason for all of this.......

Anyway....I did not care and lost my head several times, found it again, cleaned it and put it right on top of me again, where it belongs! (lol) And got on with the show! I am still standing, with my head on top of me. And now it is 2006, I am here at Zaadz, a community, where people empower themselves & each others. Sometimes I can hear it......the sound of NO chopping heads.......Love it. This community actually gives back what was lost a long time ago. Our society no longer is this social control system. We now have a community by choice. And I believe that our task is to bring this community feeling created in the virtual world back to the material world. How does that sounds? Simple? Easy? Impossible? 

We people need empowerment! endorsement, encouragement, to grow and grow high above the grass, to unlimited heights, we need enlightened people who will carry the torch back to day to day life, every day a magical experience, a celebration of LIFE!

In 1992 Shakti writes "We have to deliberate undertake steps to change our life circumstances and return to community thinking, the tribe, unity with others, who have the same goal....."

So SHAKTI, look @ us, See what we are doing over HERE!

WE ARE DOING IT!

Zaadz and its members, among others, are doing it! We create a critical mass community who only want a better WORLD for ALL and ONE!



Leendert van Velsen 
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Hail Earth & Her Birds

Posted on May 31st, 2007 by Leendert : Illuminator ES Leendert
The Earth Shelter : ~shelter~

Every Morning,  when I wake up, the first thing I do, is look out of the window and thank my universal shelter for this miracle, the blue planet, 3th from the Sun, God's Universal descendants habitat. I start my day with Green Tea, I walk or look into the Garden and feed the Birds. It's a feast of Friends. Started doing this 3 years ago, feeding the Blackbirds, trying to save their chicks from danger, nursing my Sunflowers and Roses.

Today there are a every day, a blackbird family, a solitaire black pigeon and  two beautiful big grey and white wood pigeons.

                                                  

I always screamed @ the Crows, like a Crow, Warning them for my presence, telling them I protect the other Birds. There are Tomtits, Robin's,

                                                         

and many swallows, they do not feed on my bread but they fly and dance around and sing for us, together with the blackbirds. 

   I am learning the Blackbirds Language and I can whistle some of their one-liners....:-)

                                                    
Recently one of my Profound Teachers told me to change strategy. I started to feed the crows too, in search of the White Crow. Things changed rapidly. First came the Jackdaws (sort of small crow). It was tough because these birds are so rude and cheeky, they don't care about any other birds and they are aggressive. Then another magical thing, there came a Jay (also a crow species) with it's beautiful colours.
 


Then the Big Black Crows arrived, many of them, few smaller ones and ONE really Big Crow. I am becoming friends now with these Crows, because I need to, if I want to find the White One. This is becoming a mayor part of my QUEST. Overcoming the dark darkness into the Bright Light. The White Crow!



A few days ago there was a very good sign; I was playing guitar for the open window, early in the morning, I was playing; Nights in white Satin, when suddenly I looked up......in front of the open window there was an awesome sight. There were two pigeons, a large black crow with a few  white feathers, two jackdaws, a Jay and the blackbird couple. Is this special?.........Yes these birds never tolerate each other in normal conditions, My window is about 1.25  x 1.25 so my view is limited, still all these birds where in front of me so they where very close to me and each other among different species, thus YES this was very special. If the Birds can get along we can do it too! Feeding the Birds was a  good Advice!

After feeding, I clean my Altar, drink more Green Tea and  light frankincense, 1 candle that burns all day for departed souls, and two during my meditation & contemplation, some would call that prayers. 

This ritual is about an hour and @ 8 my daily day can start, just after thanking Our Universe and our Earth in it;  I say thank you for another magical and beautiful Day to Come.

Leendert van Velsen

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I

Posted on May 17th, 2007 by Leendert : Illuminator ES Leendert
I
I want to be healthy
I want true laughter
I want happiness
I want fun
I want peace

I give laughter
I give happiness
I am fun
I have a lot to give
I have peace in me

I want to be financially free
I want to be happy
I want to be healthy

I give money
I give happiness
I give good health

I give freedom
I am free
I am
I
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I am...

Posted on May 27th, 2007 by Leendert : Illuminator ES Leendert
 
I am that what I am + that what I am not = Me

Quantum Physics explains this formula pretty well. Based on the Photon experiments traveling through a number of wholes before being projected into reality. I am the visible me added with that what I am not. That what I am not is an invisible force interacting with the visible force. Together it forms me into the shape I am. So I am being shaped by that what I am and that what I am not. It is like light and darkness. To be or not to be that is the reality. But it's both true. I am and I am not. At the same time. Quantum puzzles? Hi Ha.......think about this for a while.....How can I be that what I am not?

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