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Creativity requires Experimenting

Posted on Aug 10th, 2007 by Leendert : Illuminator ES Leendert
Basic_programming

One year ago:

The only way I have learned anything in this life is by making mistakes, small ones and really big ones. Huge ones too. And a lot of small errors leading to bigger problems, you know. We call them mistakes but it would be more wise to call it Experimenting. Try by Error. It was so much fun when I was a kid I was programming in Basic computer language, writing lines for hours and hours. By the time I was finished it really begun. The program never worked. So I had to find the lines with the mistakes.....

My life is the same. I write and write, program line after program line, now and then I type the command RUN (enter) to see if the program spontaneous will run without problems, well it never does, I make mistakes all the time and that is OK. It is my creativity that needs experimenting with this life. I need to be in touch with a stream of emotions flowing through me and I have to be prepared to create without demanding it to be perfect or beautiful. Being creative allows me to make mistakes without calling it mistakes but a simple necessary process of creating. Trial by Error. All these mistakes in my life have led to only a few successes. Very sweet ones. The reason for these successes where these mistakes I made before. They belong to each other. I have known some huge disappointments in my life. I am happy about them now because I know they can function as the basis of future Grand Victories in my personal life....yet to come. Looking back on my fundament I smile because I know the concrete is filled with iron and is of the rarest best known quality. My faults are quality mistakes :)
 
My biggest achievement until know has been my ability to learn from my errors and eventually become stronger through them.

I am prepared to make "mistakes" and learn from them all the time.



Leendert van Velsen

  RUN---->
<ENTER>
  SYNTAX ERROR IN LINE 13
  please wait.......
  ok?
 

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The Challenge of my time

Posted on Aug 25th, 2007 by Leendert : Illuminator ES Leendert
Masculin_feminin
One year ago:

Concerning male and female role patterns my times are challenging AND confusing. I am a single parent raising my 4 year old girl for 50 % of the time combining this with a 5 day workweek :) Every other week I have a weekend for myself, time-off.

Now today this is more common then 30 years ago, but still this is a situation very few people really understand. People are still very locked up in the traditional role patterns, even when today in my society, both man and woman can break out of this. It is even very confusing. How can I be a loving mother and a strong powerful father at the same time?

I have found out I can be this because I want to. It is in my powerful nature to speak to the inside mother and father I have been raised by when I was a little kid. They where / are there all the time. They are inside of my archetypes. I only have to be not a shamed of my feminine qualities. Because I KNOW I have powerful manly aggressive qualities I must be able to find a balance so I can become both, soft but hard, like water, out of a Supra mental approach, whenever one quality is appropriate.

So, I have been trying to find a balance between my masculine and feminine energies and I try to learn from the experience. Really? YEAH!



Leendert van Velsen
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Life shows me all I need to know (The Stream)

Posted on Aug 28th, 2007 by Leendert : Illuminator ES Leendert
Falling_water
One year ago:

I have learned (by trial and error) to make an advantage out of  "the stream". Instead of trying to control everything , I have learned to let everything go, like a stream of water flowing from a mountain top.  I tell you; this is not always easy!  No, this is hard as Rock sometimes, but eventually the water will make the rock disappear. I know this is true. Letting go, trust that this is the best way to discover my real life purpose is difficult and scary, but IF I do, I only find that it is true. No resistance,  no fear, just a stream, like a river flowing and flowing.  On my way through the flow, I recognize all life is showing me,  all that is significant for me to experience and hopefully I learn from that. I can even sometimes regulate the forward speed of my stream, I can sit in the middle or by the side, depending on the velocity of events I want to create in my life. This all is of-course a creative process in which I let my mind decide how I want to experience the Flow. Instead of trying to control, I have learned to trust my own creativity and my own heart.

I Go with the Flow , I mean Stream, I mean uh River, ah well you know what I mean~  :-)
 

Leendert van Velsen
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Is growing up always painful?

Posted on Aug 20th, 2007 by Leendert : Illuminator ES Leendert
Leendert said Aug 18, 12:37 AM:

When I was a child, I remember having growing pains at night. I couldn't sleep and sometimes my mum or dad had to massage my arms and legs until I fell a sleep. I hated growth and stayed small until I was seventeen. I had a mind of my own and I was convinced that I could stop growing if I really tried. When I became 17 I had to go to the army. Then I started to become taller. I needed to be bigger, it was not cool being the smallest soldier around. How did I do this? It was the power of thought. With this power we can accomplish anything.

Having said that we stand for a difficult choice. What do I want to become when I grow up?

How tall do I want to be? What will I do when I am there?

What do you want to become when you grow up? 

Growth is the essence of my soul, but am I aware of what I am growing into?
How will this growth influence my life, my friends, my work, my business?

Please share your thoughts over here; but be carefull, before you know it your thoughts become reality!

Kind Regards,


Leendert van Velsen
The Netherlands
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